not what i can’t but what he will.

28 Dec

that is my heart anthem right now. God is so witty. He is so in tune with what my heart needs. This summer I stumbled across a verse that hit my gut. one that just stirred up my spirit. it didn’t really make sense, but i just got fired up reading it. a couple days later i find out my very best friend is stuck in india… to say the least. that verse came fully alive and made a whole lot of sense. He had spoken it before so it was a ready anchor for my soul. well, the same thing happened recently. i was just hanging out with God, no agenda and to be honest little expectation. decided to ask God what His fresh word for me that day was and I stumbled upon Romans 4. and got blown up. another gut punching stir in the spirit moment. and a week later it is the anchor ready for my soul to cling to.

this season of life is one like no other. that lull between still being fully engaged with this season of life, but being close to the end of it. tip toeing slowly towards this black vague space. it seems so unknown. so full of possabilities, but not being able to see them makes it seem hopeless at the same time. seasons have come to a close before and i’ve anticipated the closing but i’ve never not known what’s next. and i’ve never had so much control over what’s next. so as decisions need to be made and actions needs to be taken, it is easy to get overwhelmed, frusterated and scared.

that is until i realize it’s not about me. it’s not what i can accomplish, who i can connect with, what i can do to work up to this great thing. when the weight of the future is on me it simply crushes me. but that’s an expectation i dont need to put on myself. there is joy in the leap of faith of who he has made me to be and what he empowers me to do. it’s not about me, but he fully uses me. and let’s me jump in with both feet in pure joy. fear is no where close to the portion he has for me!!

“That famous promise God gave Abraham—that he and his children would possess the earth—was not given because of something Abraham did or would do. It was based on God’s decision to put everything together for him, which Abraham then entered when he believed. If those who get what God gives them only get it by doing everything they are told to do and filling out all the right forms properly signed, that eliminates personal trust completely and turns the promise into an ironclad contract! That’s not a holy promise; that’s a business deal. A contract drawn up by a hard-nosed lawyer and with plenty of fine print only makes sure that you will never be able to collect. But if there is no contract in the first place, simply a promise—and God’s promise at that—you can’t break it.

This is why the fulfillment of God’s promise depends entirely on trusting God and his way, and then simply embracing him and what he does. God’s promise arrives as pure gift. That’s the only way everyone can be sure to get in on it, those who keep the religious traditions and those who have never heard of them. For Abraham is father of us all. He is not our racial father—that’s reading the story backward. He is our faith father.

We call Abraham “father” not because he got God’s attention by living like a saint, but because God made something out of Abraham when he was a nobody. Isn’t that what we’ve always read in Scripture, God saying to Abraham, “I set you up as father of many peoples”? Abraham was first named “father” and then became a father because he dared to trust God to do what only God could do: raise the dead to life, with a word make something out of nothing. When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn’t do but on what God said he would do.”

romans 4. 13-18, message. i told you it’s good. it’s good in NIV, in AMP and in MSG. just pure gut punching goodness.

so here’s to daring to trust God in what only God can do. here’s to believing when circumstances feel hopeless. here’s to trusting in what he said he would do not on what i can’t do. he said he has a full life for me, that he has adventure farther than my deepest imagination. here’s to the step of faith. to the leap of trust. that my God is big and he has my back. that what seems black and scary to me is known by the guy who says he’ll never leave me or forsake me.

He is trustworthy.

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2 Responses to “not what i can’t but what he will.”

  1. . December 28, 2011 at 6:07 am #

    thankful for such a timely word!

  2. kelcyworkman March 10, 2013 at 2:23 pm #

    Reblogged this on trustfuriously and commented:

    I’ve been rereading this post frequently lately. It’s still so true for my heart over a year later. I’ve tried to post in 2013, but can’t get past a draft. I promise this year has been good – just not a season of recording. Which, I think is really okay. Here’s to daring to live not on the basis of what I see I can’t do, but on what what God says he will do.

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