the domino effect of freedom.

25 Jan

The word is out.  The announcement has been made. I am indeed planning a charity 5k.  Me.  Of all people, I never thought those words would come out of my mouth.  While it’s exciting and fresh, scary but exciting, I want to explain the reasoning behind it.  On hard days, when road blocks come, you can remind me of this post.  Remind me of the bigger picture when details make it hard to see.

If you know me, you know my life is not the same as it was a year ago.  I have gone through one of the hardest, most grace-filled, old paradigm shattering seasons of my whole life.  I’m still in it, but it’s a little easier to process being 8 months in.  Places of deep shame have been broken, removed and replaced with joy, love and acceptance.  Shame is such a rediculous thing. I like knowing more about what I’m saying, so shame according to is “the painful feeling arising from the consciousness of something dishonorable, improper, ridiculous, etc.”  Talk about scheme of the enemy.  But in the depths of it, it’s hard to see the lies.  I was allowing shame to be my portion, and I started to recognized it but it was hard to shift old thought patterns to align with the truth.  I would repeat Psalm 25:3 to myself – no one who puts their hope in the Lord will ever be put to shame.  But it was such a disconnect for me, I knew to put my hope in the Lord, but how to do that was a different story.

Very long story short, God knew I had no idea.  So He hooked me up.  He took me on the journey and all I had to do was receive and say yes.  Opportunity after opportunity came my way to jump onto a healthy step that would get me closer to breakthrough in a healthy, wholistic way.  Full of community to be there right at my side – something past attempts had purposefully left out due to shame. So the last step I took – running.

Running has always been a source of shame for me. I tire quickly, feel like I can’t do it and comparision is pretty easy in that environment. I avoided it at all costs in elementary school and when I didn’t have to do it for school any more, I absolutely didn’t do it.  I always claimed how much I hated it.  Really, I had allowed shame to say I couldn’t even try it.  So in all this breakthrough, I figured the biggest thing to tackle would be the source of most pain.  So, with faithful friends at my side, I started running.  Really horribly and really slowly at first.  Y’all, I was so excited the first time we ran 10 minutes straight.  This was a huge accomplishment for me. We kept running, kept learning, kept pushing, kept trying.  We tried different intervals, we tried different speeds, it didn’t really matter as long as we just kept trying.  We ran my first 5k race a month and 10 days after our first ever run.  And now we’re training for the bearathon (a half-marathon for those non-baylorites – yikes!).  This journey has been favor-filled.  The things I’ve learned while/from running would make this blog more like a book.

Today’s point – Jesus used running to set me free.  He took the biggest source of shame for me in this area and took me on a journey of defeating it.  Of taking the ground back for Him and His Kingdom.  The joy that comes from finishing a run is unexplainable, and I would have never gotten to experience that if it was still in shame’s backyard.  He broke off old thought patterns while I was running.  It’s a place of conquer. Of victory – both physically and spiritually.  You may ask how running could do that, but for me it was just the place I avoided with eveything in me become of the hurt associated with it.  God isn’t afraid of the mess.  He is after my heart and complete healing.

Since Jesus used running to set me free, I want to partner with Him again and use it to set others free.  I want it to be a place to empower those around me that we can do something now.  I want to use it to raise awareness and have a easy way to get people talking about the atrocities that are happening across the world.  For people to rise up and say there will not be 27 million slaves in 2012.  Not on our watch.  I want people to start talking about solutions and ways to see freedom and hope fill the dark and broken places.  I want to use it to support those who are in the trenches and being the solutions God is aligning and placing on the earth.  I want us to gather behind them and support them financially and prayerfully to help fill one of their needs.  I want it to be a place where a community comes together and celebrates freedom – celebrates the God who brings freedom and fights until it is established in every corner of the earth.

Fight for the places of your heart that need the biggest breakthrough.  Let God heal and take you on that journey.  It’ll be hard, you’ll want to quit, but the outcome outweighs any of the hard moments.  Just say yes and trust that He knows what He’s doing and He has your heart’s interest in mind.  Then buckle your seatbelt and be prepared to be blown away.  He is about to take you on the ride of your life.  To see you set free, and then to use the victory to see others set free.

P.S. There are a TON of organizations fighting furiously for freedom.  The one I’ve chosen for the 5k is the A21 Campaign.  Check out their website and learn more!


3 Responses to “the domino effect of freedom.”

  1. Audrey January 25, 2012 at 11:11 am #

    Yay, God! Yay, you!

    this sounds so cool. count me in, and let me know how I can help. 🙂

  2. Sarah Mudd January 25, 2012 at 11:52 am #

    Kelcy! Reading this just brings tears to my eyes! I’m so proud of you– the woman you were before, and the woman you are becoming! You have no idea how much your life, and your example inspire me. I want to catch up soon… skype or phone call? Let’s do it!

  3. Arica Coleman February 6, 2012 at 11:16 am #

    You are such an incredible woman of God! This is so exciting and encouraging. I love you and miss you dearly!

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