Sifting Through Words

30 Mar

It’s been over 2 years since I’ve written here. A lot has happened in those 2 years. A lot of tears shed, a lot of rejoicing & celebrating. A lot of emotions and uncertainties tied with learning how to navigate new terrains. A lot of bumps on the road and learning what it looks like to be an adult. A lot of standing back up after feeling like I fell down and a lot of letting others in so they could help pull me back up. A lot of sweet moments have filled these 2 years as well – walking down the aisle to my groom probably being the sweetest.

Marriage is sweet and where it feels like I’ve been sifting through words, trying to find the ones that best fit what’s going on in my heart and mind, he is the one who gets the babbles. Who looks past the words that I try to fit and goes to the deeper meaning behind them in my heart. Who sees me at my worst, yet loves me in those moments the same way he does at my best. He is my reminder of God who has been near.

Even when words have not been near, He has been near. I forget that in my sifting, in my grasping for understanding.

I let fear write my story, my emotions when I forget.

I’ve been thinking about blogging a lot lately. How good it is for me to sit and stop and try to put words to the thoughts in my head. It becomes an “ah ha” moment for my soul. The formulating of what’s been going on. A written stone to remember the places in my heart that God came. That He was near.

I love that “Trust Furiously” became my anthem years ago. It reminds me again today, even now as worry and fear try to sneak in, that furious is not passive. I can trust God. Even when my emotions don’t line up and I’m sifting through words, He is always trustworthy. Here’s to the journey of trusting, dear friends. During the times you feel like you understand and especially during the times when you feel as if you’re sifting through words.

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